Wanting you; July 12 1:00 pm

A drop of ink
Hanging above
Contemplating
Whether Or not
To let go

The water below
Standing still
Seemingly composed
And steady
The world can see
The water
Running deep
Happy and merry
But look within
You will see a void
As small as a drop
And as large as the water
Making it feel empty

The water
Waiting, longing, aching
Wanting the drop
To come
To merge
To fill the void
To change it
To make a new color
Bring it alive
And make it complete
The water is waiting…

Within
the water knows
It wont be before
It is born again
in another time
in another world
in another body
it would feel whole

The Wind; July 12, 2009; 11:00 am

I open the window
And it gushes in
Makes me feel good
On my skin
It keeps blowing
To an unknown destination
With the same high speed
Intending to settle somewhere

Take me with you
You are the only one
Who is happy
To meet me everyday
To talk to me
I let myself loose
Thinking
Layer by layer
I disperse
And fly away
Take me with you
With closed eyes
I see the moment
When I turn in to a feather
Just to be with the wind

Take me with you
To the far away land
Where I can settle
Wherever you settle
Where I can love you
Where I can be with you completely
Where we can play
Where the pain will erode
And the longing shall disappear
And I can feel alive again

A wish; July 12, 2009; 11:00 am

I wish she could see me independently of the strings attached. Then may be I would have a chance. May be she would reciprocate. May be she would give in to her wants. Although I want her to be with me COMPLETELY, a part of me is also scared. Scared of time – since it will continue to pass, whereas when I am with her I want the time to stop – everything around to dissolve and disappear. Continuously wishing for her, a part of me tells me its not worth it since in this life it cannot sustain itself for long – and may be I am scared of time after that. And I would rather have her in my life in some way rather than none at all.

If some of my wishes be fulfilled, the top of the list is that I want to go with her when she ascends from this world…..Just so that I can be with her then. Please – take me with you.

Life in moments; July 12, 2009; 1:30 a.m.

In bits and pieces
I get to live
So let me live
In bits and pieces
Let life flow
I am parched
Let me be parched

While napping yesterday
I heard you whisper in my ear
To save myself from falling in your arms
I trampled on my dream
I looked around for you
I had received a message from you
Let me complete my dream
I am thirsty
Let me remain thirsty

You painted the sky
And I have the earth
Beneath me
But life is good
In just longing
to be with you
Let me spend this life
Longing for you
I am thirsty
Let me be thirsty

A little void
May be filled these days
By your words
The remaining
I shall fill in
With your thoughts
And my tears
I am thirsty
Let me remain thirsty

In bits and pieces
I get to live
So let me live
In bits and pieces
Let life flow
I am parched
Let me be parched