Separation; 28th October 2009; 3:00 a.m.

You got me gifts
You thought about me
In a warm way
You cared for me
In ways I couldn’t imagine
You conversed with me
For long hours
You shared your every thought
Your every sorrow
Was mine
Your every happiness
Was mine
Your every tear
Was mine
Your every fear
Was mine
You knew me inside out
You cared to wipe
My tears
You were with me
when I was low
You supported me
When life was slow
We were together
We were more than near
We were one.

Last year
You found someone else
You bought him gifts galore
You cared for him more
You talked to him
In ways I couldn’t imagine
You brought him closer to you
You shared your every emotion
Your every side
You loved him like never before
You planned Your future
with him by your side
You planned your days
With him by your side
You travelled far & wide
With him in your mind
Suddenly, without a thought
You just walked away.

It pains.
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In his talks
You were blown away
Without realizing
He is just a stranger
Showing you his world
Through his eyes
Controlled & biased

Every step you took
Towards him
Did you not think of me even once?
Every gift you bought
Were you not bringing him closer?
Every emotion you shared
Did you not realize
It is taking me away?
Everytime he touched you
Everytime he kissed you
Did he not snatch you away?

The distance you travelled
With him
Has left me far behind
Longing for you
Crying to be with you
Seeking your attention
In every way – anyway

The distance you travelled
With him
Has taken you away from me.

The Scintillating Night: October 26th 2009; 2:40 a.m.

Looking into the night
I see her sprinkled all across

Here
She is laughing
The brightness pulsating
With the presence of
Entire universe
There she looking
Intensely in to my eyes
And I am lost

A little far
The tiny on is chuckling
The way she does
The big one is happy
Revealing the pearly whites
The oscillating one
Must be the earrings
The fading one
Is her crying tear
The occassionaly brighter one
is her bugged mind

Spreading across the sky
Are her hair
Is that the color or is it
The halogen road lights
Giving her her that shade

Amidst all these
I see a falling star
I run to catch her
To hold her
To keep her with me
But she eludes me
I settle down again
To be with her again – all of her
Conversing, talking
Smiling my occasional happiness
Crying my fears

I am with her
She is with me
This night is mine
The moment is mine
But is she?

Life less than ordinary: October 4; 2009

Life is good.
Life is great.
Towards a successful loveless life…
...a quasi-successful love-life.

Fool: September 2009

Foolish mind wanders along
To catch a butterfly

Foolish words
Of a foolish mind
Striving hard
To find their meaning

The mad song
Of a mad mind
Trying to find a melody

The empty poem
Of an empty mind
Longing to fill in

Amidst the gush
Of the other river
The words got washed away
The song has drowned
The melody is absent
The meaning is lost
The poem in the words
Is missing

Hold on to some rock, words
Settle down in the river bed, song
Embed in the bottom, poem
Once the gush is over
I hope to find you

If not me, if not now
I shall ascend in peace
Knowing
That you have embedded yourselves
Deep down
Hoping
To find you
When I am born again